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Pictures!Collapse )Well, Livejournal, it finally happened. After years of wanting it, I finally have my Sweetcharade tattoo My right arm is no longer pathetic and naked. Sunday iamxander1986 and I went into Cutthroat Tattoo on Brady St and got poked. A lot. I originally chose Cutthroat because of their sign, which I thought was brilliant. I feel I made the right choice. Our guy's name is Harry, and he was laid back and meticulous. He went over every line with a precision and skill I had yet to see with any of my tattoo artists.

The whole process took about half an hour, yet it felt like five minutes. I love the bite of the needle, I love watching the artist bent over my flesh in concentration, the little bits of blood and ink running down my skin. It's such an interesting experience, and so satisfying. I also had the Love on my arm touched up, and it now looks better than it did when I first got it. I have recommended Harry to Crocostimpy Superbleeder, and I really hope he gets more business, he deserves it.

iamxander1986  got Tali's name tattooed on his upper arm, and it is absolutely beautiful and intricate.

We also recently got laptops, he now has a MacBook and I an Asus. The novelty of laying in bed and being on the Internet has yet to wear off.

We've been a bit lucky the past few weeks. we've had Tali for almost a month and when we haven't been stressed out from the constant bustle of parenthood, we have been having a blast with her. She's only had a couple of bratty days the entire time she's been with us, which is very nice. She's been babbling up a storm with a few real words here and there. She still calls me NaNa and occasionally Mama, she still calls iamxander1986 DaDa and often DahEe. She's also learned "Bye" and now meows with the cats. I love her so much, she always seems to have a smile for me.
Yesterday I mildly freaked out when I found her Tigger in my bed, from the moment she came home from the hospital she's slept with it. When she's here, I always make sure she has her Tigger and her Gloworm in her crib. I was worried about her sleeping alone because she didn't have Tigger and I couldn't find the Gloworm. I don't even remember dropping Tigger back in her crib this morning, but he is now safe and sound guarding her dreams.

School is going pretty well for iamxander1986 , he is excelling in a couple of classes to the point where he is helping other students with their math. I am very proud of him.

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Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Stickdog-Billie Jean
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I woke up this morning with a vicious migraine, and I was lucky enough to combat it with Excedrin. I have a window of about half an hour when it starts for any medication to work. Three groups of women were in the cafe today chattering away at a slightly obnoxious volume which caused the migraine to come creeping back, and I thought I was done for. Usually if I can't catch it in time, I am rendered immobile and damn near catatonic, my migraines need dark silence Excedrin and sleep.

My wrist feels better today, I wore the brace overnight and put it on after my shift. Perhaps it is just a sprain.

I've had Placebo's Blue American stuck in my head today, it's such a great song. Like most Placebo songs, it makes me kind of melancholy.
I got a comment on my last entry that was a link to Russian porn. Awesome. European porn is kind of gross, since the people in them are usually ridiculously hairy and ugly. I like my Ron Jeremies American, thank you very much, Russian spammer.

iamxander1986 is in class until 9.00 tonight and I have a couple of hours to myself. I kind of like that. I get to sit and relax. Maybe I'll read or take a bubble bath. I am re-reading The Millenium Triology, my Mum gave me The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest for Christmas. I was so excited. I can't wait to re-read it. There seems to be a lot of mixed opinions on that particular series, my Mum didn't like The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, so she hasn't read the other two. iamxander1986 didn't like The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo either, but enjoyed the movie. I am really dreading the American version of the film. How can Daniel Craig come anywhere near Michael Nyqvist's stellar performance as Mikael Blomkvist? Noomi Rapace was everything my brain pictured Lisbeth Salander to be, and she was really damned hot with the spiked collar. After looking it up on IMDB, I've definitely decided to abstain from the American version of the film.  Stupid Hollywood.

Tomorrow is going to be an awesome fun filled day of..............CHORES! Woo! Laundry, dishes, litter boxes. Ah the excitement. I think we'll still have game tomorrow, which will be awesome. Hopefully iamxander1986 will finally drop a box of Lucky Charms on Mario and kill his character. The way Mario plays his character is so annoying I want to punch things.

Current Mood: nerdynerdy
Current Music: Placebo-Twenty Years
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As a side note: I want a tattoo. Ok. I want three tattoos. Four just isn't enough. If I have money left from my tax return after the rings and a new laptop, I may just head to the east side and have that naughty little itch scratched. My ultimate tattoo goal is to have eight, and I may want more after that, but eight is all I can think of. In addition to the four I already have, I want to have "Sweetcharade" tattooed on the inside of my right arm, fleur de lys on my wrists, and I need to find a good spot for a Star of David in honour of my Grampa.

Grampa died 6 April, and there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of him. I miss him very much, but I'm glad he is no longer suffering. If my Grampa is existing on a plane of the afterlife, I'm sure he remembers his family and his friends. That thought alone is what keeps me from losing my shit on most days. Some are harder than others, and I'm sure my sister feels the same way.

Current Music: Mopti-Don Houge
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I think I am officially broken. Fucked up back, psoriatic arthritis, migraines, and now a brand new shiny wrist brace! I think all of the work I do with my hands is what has caused the sudden need. Six to seven hours dail of using the espresso machine, typing on the register, ladling soup, etc. I am still young, and I'm falling apart! Hurray for me. My right wrist has been bothering me all week, and I can't think of anything I could have done to sprain it.  Shit happens I suppose?

Last night, Jay, George, iamxander1986 and I went to Rochambo where we ran into Nick. I haven't seen Nick since before I moved to Madison, and I was a blast. We played SkipBo and Phase Ten. We all talked like we had only seen each other yesterday. It was a very very good time.

Tali update!
-Has mastered the one year old versions of "up" "down" and "uh-oh"
-Gets up to get her Elmo when it's time to watch Elmo on tv
-Still calls iamxander1986 "DaDa"
-Calls me "NaNa"
-Still runs around like crazy
When Tali's here, we always let her wander around the house, with one of us following closely behind. iamxander1986 named this behaviour "Suicide watch" since we have to keep her from pulling things down on top of her and steer her away from the chaos she is instinctually obligated to create. Parenting is hard, but very much worth it.

I'm going to be honest, here, LJ. I feel like I've got nothing to say, and that I am only posting this out of boredom. This isn't true. There are plenty of things that happen, and that will happen, I've just gone so long without doing this regularly that to sit down and type a post seems foriegn to me. I don't like that very much. I have missed doing this, hopefully I will reacquaint myself with my LJ and once more become poignant and witty. Or I could just be the same Jen I always was. Time will tell, eh?

Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: John Scofield- Watch Out For Po-Po
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iamxander1986 and I are getting married in roughly six months. Jesus, where did that time go? I'm currently prowling the Interwebs for affordable, classy, not diamond wedding bands. He is a fan of Tungsten carbide because they are durable. My engagement ring is white gold, I'm attempting to find a decent compromise,and he tells me to find something inexpensive and we'll get better rings later on. I'd like to not have to replace my wedding band, this means a lot to me. I'm planning to purchase our wedding bands with my tax return, and if I'm lucky, grab a new laptop. I love my Thinkpad, but it is a little tired at this point. The internal wireless is screwed and the "F" key sticks a bit.

Since the return to Milwaukee, a lot of my old friendships have been rebuilt. Jay is sitting at the other end of the table building a Shadowrun campaign, we see Jay George and Mario pretty regularly. I talk to Macca all the time on Twitter and call her a couple of times a week, we've gone out to see her once, and I'm hoping to make it more often.

Tali is doing pretty well, she's growing up so fast. It seems like just yesterday she came home from the hospital, now she is a year old, walking and can say a few words. Tomorrow she'll be asking to borrow the car. It's so strange. She needs to be a baby for a little while longer.

iamxander1986 is going back to school, he started at MATC last week, and is enjoying it so far. I'm very proud of him, he's looking to get his RN. Every time I pick up one o his textbooks or we talk about anatomy, he asks "Why aren't you going into my profession?" I don't understand why he does this. I am fascinated by the human body and what it can do, but I have no interest in nursing or doctoring.

With the help of both Macca and Logo, I have become hopelessly addicted to RuPaul's Drag Race. Think America's Next Top Model with a dash of Project Runway and a whole lot of fairy dust. Henry Rollins guest judged an episode during season two, and RuPaul made him blush, which isn't really that hard considering his whole Samurai boy scout thing. I adore RuPaul so much.

Work is lovely. I really enjoy being there, Sandy is a fantastic boss and I have a great dynamic with Barry and some of our regular costumers.

Sometimes I miss some of the people I know in Madison. I haven't been as close with wattshumphrey since the breakup and both moves, I hope he's ok. I really miss Kerrigan and The Boys, but I'm really glad I don't live with Alyssa and Shaun anymore, they started to drive us nuts.

I think I'm actually going to make a late New Year's resolution. I am going to try to update LJ more often, I miss being able to sit and do this. Thinking, writing, getting things off my chest. I live in a place where this is possible, but I mostly get online in the mornings before work. Here's to the start of a brand new year. Time to grab 2011 by the balls.

Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: The Barenaked Ladies-Be My Yoko Ono
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The only way this week could get better is if Tali suddenly poofed in front of us and I could hug my Cubby Bear.

Wednesaday night, iamxander1986 and I saw Muse with Mario, it was such a stunning show. Everytime they performed a song off of The Resistence, the light show painted this portrait of a frightening dystopic beauty, which makes a whole lot of sense since that record is all about sticking it to Big Brother. Matt Bellamy is the only person I've seen to make a keytar look cool. Easily one of the best shows I've ever seen. The opening band Passion Pit seems to have become a staple in the Milwaukee concert circuit having performed here three times since April. They were musically interesting, with an intriguing light show, but the singing was awful. Worth it to know Muse was coming afterward.

Last night we went to UWM to see Henry Rollins with Jay, we arrived at about three pm, the  Rollins show was free with limited seating, so we decided to get there early to make sure we had good seats. We made friends with one of the people waiting, his name is Sean, and now we're all Twitter friends and there was good conversation and great banter. At about 6:00, kosherspam showed up and there was the usual "Holy shit!" that happens with reunions.  Rollins was absolutely fantastic as always, it was my thrid speaking show and my second show this year. When we went in April, Rollins had spoken about a near religious experience the first time he'd heard Bad Brains, we told him afterward how we had similar experiences with bands we'd seen, and he told us to check out Black Dots.  When we spoke with him last night, iamxander1986 told him that he did check out that record and that it was fantastic, Rollins was like "Right on!" We had the usual chat for a couple of minutes and then he worked his way through the crowd some more. We'd had a picture taken, but no one saved it on Xander's phone so we had to go back. Rollins was so nice about taking a second picture, and we finally got it and subsequently posted it to Facebook.

While we were waiting in line, the Rave street team was out and about handing out two drink minimum tickets for upcoming shows, including tonight's Bad Religion show, and we were complaining that we didn't have the $30 for the two drinks, and out of nowhere comes this magical Rave street team fairy to hand us all two regular tickets to the Bad Religion show.  So free Muse, free Rollins, and tonight free Bad Religion. My first punk show ever, and it's a band I don't know too much about, but what I've heard, I like.  iamxander1986  is really excited about it, he's been a fan of Bad Religion since he was a kid and he likes one of the opening bands, Bouncing Souls.

I've also found a job at a tiny cafe on 60th, which I kind of enjoy. The downtime is a bitch, though. I was really sad to hear that Mayfair's B&N didn't have any openings for me, but I'll try again soon. I'd like to stay in B&N, I've had such a blast working at the store in Madison, despite the Judy drama, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I cried like a hungry angry baby when Rich hugged me on my last day. I miss that store so much.

And now for Hell's Kitchen on Hulu, but first, THE AWESOME

Xander, Rollins, and the Jenhen


Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: The Verve Pipe-The Freshmen
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Red-Lost
Can I be dreaming once again?
I'm reaching helpless I descend
You're leading deeper through this maze
I'm not afraid

I'm lost in you everywhere I run
Everywhere I turn I'm finding something new
I'm lost in you something I can't fight
I cannot escape
I can spend my life lost in you! Lost in you!

Your whispers fill these empty halls
I'm searching for you as you call
I'm bracing, chasing after you
I need you more

I'm lost in you everywhere I run
Everywhere I turn I'm finding something new
I'm lost in you something I can't fight
I cannot escape
I can spend my life lost in you!

I could never be the same here
Something that I never could erase
I could never look away
I lost myself in you!
It's all over now!

Lost in you! Everywhere I run
Lost in you! Everywhere I run!
Lost in you!
Lost in you!

Red-Never Be The Same
I know you, who are you now?
Look into my eyes if you can't remember
Do you remember? Oh

I can say, I can still find
You are the only voice my heart can recognize
But I can hear you now, yeah

I'll never be the same
I'm caught inside the memories
The promises, our yesterdays
And I belong to you

I just can't walk away
'Cause after loving you
I can never be the same

And how can I pretend I never knew you
Like it was all a dream, no
I know I'll never forget
The way I always felt with you beside me
And how you loved me then, yeah

I'll never be the same
I'm caught inside the memories
The promises, our yesterdays
And I belong to you

I just can't walk away
'Cause after loving you
I can never be the same

You left me here then I watched you disappear
You left this emptiness inside
And I can't turn back time

No, stay
Nothing compares to you, nothing compares to you
I can't let you go, can't let you go, I can't let go

I'll never be the same
Not after loving you
Not after loving you, no

I'll never be the same
I'm caught inside the memories
The promises, our yesterdays
And I belong to you

I just can't walk away
'Cause after loving you
I can never be the same

I can never be the same
I will never be the same

I just can't walk away
No, I can't walk away from you

Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Macca on phone
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I'm back, bitches. Back to LJ and Milwaukee. Huzzah!

Current Music: Metallica-Fuel S&M version
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I wonder if it's sad or ironic that iamxander1986  and I are sitting right next to each other and we're on our LJs. Maybe a little of both.

Things are actually going pretty well despite the fact that I've been infected by my genetics and a cold, a cold which I seem to have given to Tali. Shitty. She hates having her boogers sucked with the booger sucker thingie and absolutly loathes having nasal saline squirted up her nose I feel like such an asshole every time I have to do it, she screams like she'd been set on fire. Generally she's a pretty mellow kid, she went through a growth spurt whilst we were in Milwaukee, cluster feeding, power naps, cranky fits and all.

We went to Milwaukee for ladyice89 's wedding and it was absolutly beautiful. I cried a lot. There are pictures on both of our Facebooks where you can clearly tell I'm trying to not lose my shit. My speech at her reception made her cry, so I guess I've gotten even. We got to see almost everyone I care about with the exception of Trent and Crocostimpy Superbleeder. Trent's dad had to go into the hospital, and Crocostimpy was sick on the one evening we were downtown without Tali. I would have liked to squeeze in coffee with childofscandal , but unfortunately there wasn't enough time.  We did get to visit with the lovely Macca and her monsters. Her son Conor was particularly rambunctious, stealing Tali's Nuk and our glasses whenever he had a chance to. Unfortunately, Macca had a bit of a breakdown during which we told her we love her and that we were ok with Conor's behaviour. I haven't had to deal with one of Macca's breakdowns in a very long time, and it sent me into a bit of a flashback to the time when her schizophrenia and manic depression were at their peak. I love that girl so much that if she weren't around I don't know what I would do.

My Grampa was at the wedding and he was drifting in and out. Sadly he checked me out when we were posing for pre ceremony pictures. The family doesn't think he'll last the year and I really don't know how well we'll handle it when he goes. My world will probably crash down around my ears and iamxander1986 will have to pick up the pieces. He's actually quite good and picking up the pieces when I fall apart, I'm really glad I'm marrying him. 

We also spent a lot of time with Mike, Madi and the kids. Konnor and Sofi fell in love with Tali, to the point where Sofi was telling me "You bring Tali here now!" on the phone, she ran up the stairs one night while Tali was crying saying "I'm coming, baby Tali!" It was SUPER cute.  Madi was super not crazy while we were there, and Mike has suddenly become his father. It was quite shocking to see. I've known Mike for nearly thirteen years and he was never that bad.

I was pleasantly surprised to see that iamxander1986 and my mother got along fantastically. My mother even said to him "Take care of my daughter, or you'll have to answer to me" he responded to that with "Don't worry, I won't hurt her, if I do I'll have eight people down here kicking my ass."

We also saw Ken briefly. He had extra tickets to the Killswitch Engage/The Devil Wears Prada/Dark Tranquility show at the Rave. Dark Tranquilty are a Swedish death metal band that tried to hard to be the bastard lovechild of Type O Negative and Metallica. Musically they were decent and I'm sure I would have like them had they not opened their mouths. The Devil Wears Prada were fantasic! They're a brutal screamy Christian metal band that played with a ferocity that made me shudder Their fans on the other hand were emo kids who kept starting pits and were squishing us. iamxander1986 got hurt during said squish running a mean D on me, Ken, Janet and this one skinny emo kid. He did a fantastic job of getting me out of the crowd before I got hurt and the claustrophobia set in. We hung out in the back for the first couple of songs of the Killswitch set. Normally, I'm neutral an Killswitch, but they didn't sound right with the dude from All That Remains filling in for the lead singer who was off the tour. We ended up leaving because he was hurting too much. All in all that was a decent night.

We're interested in getting the guy who officiated my sister's wedding to do ours. We need to get him booked soon, his summers book up quite fast. I don't know how quickly he fills up, but hopefully 28 July 2011 will still be free once we've gotten more concrete plans. Jon is really fucking rad. He's the biggest Star Wars fan I've ever met. We spent like an hour after the rehearsal talking about Star Wars and how he knows Peter Mayhew, Kenny Baker and the dude who played Boba Fett. How fucking cool is that? I am two degrees away from Chewfuckingbacca. Holy shit. I nerdgasmed for about an hour afterward, to the point that I called every nerd I knew and annoyed the shit out of my sister. Jon lives in Johnson Creek, so we're going to try to get together for an epic night of nerdy proportions. Perhaps I'll bring my copy of Fanboys before we have our Star Wars geek fest.

I really do have a fanstasic life, and I love it.

Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: fish tank, cieling fan, and the clacking of laptops in use
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What is the one simple indulgence you could never live without? Would you consider giving it up permanently for any amount of money?

I could never live without music, nor could I give up for anything. Music is the river from which all life flows. There is sorrow and joy in its scope, without music I would be dead. How could anyone give it up?

Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: NCIS
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