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March 2011
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Jen [userpic]
The Long and Winding Road.......

With work and Jeff keeping me busy, it seems like I don't have a lot of time to update this. When I get the time, I often sit here looking at the screen and I think. I think about where the past three years have taken me. I've done the one thing I've always wanted to do, even if it was for only a short period of time. I've found my true love, and I've loved my job. As I look at the calendar, I realise that one chapter of my life is ending, and I'm turning the page to start a new one. Without the help and support of so many people, this may have never happened. To all of my friends: I love you and thank you for guiding me through my life. As I walk down the path towards my new life, I remember my mother's anguish about me going to England and how easily we fought during those last months of spring. I remember my sister's stories of all the things that happened while I was gone. I remember the way it felt the first time I held Konnor, I cried because I had lost that part of me that wanted to have a family. I remember losing Angela and Robert, losing Jim, and I vow to never let that happen in the future. I will not lose the things that mean the most to me.
I remember meeting Nick and Alex and just about everyone I've met at Node, the laughter the anger and the companionship of true friends. I'm taking stories with me, memories that are both good and bad, and with those memories I have hope for the future. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about Antonio. I miss the days when we would spend hours on the phone and he would play his guitar for me. Without Antonio, I would be dead, and I am thankful that he's come into my life.
Looking at the clock, I see the hours and minutes winding down, soon I will be in Jeff's arms, and within a month my next chapter begins.

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Current Music: The Beatles-I've Got a Feeling