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March 2011
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Jen [userpic]

Don't ask where this came from, I had the line "Forgive me Father, for I have sinned" going through my head for a couple of days.


"Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. I am guilty of impure thoughts, acts of carnality, all of the Seven Deadly Sins, and taking the name of your Lord and Christ in vain. I know these are terrible sins, Father, but I am guilty of the most terrible sin of Love. I can hear the thought drift across your mind "How is Love a sin?" Well, you see Father, I loved someone-I still do actually-with everything I am. Long story short, he shattered my heart, dreams, everything. I couldn't sleep in my bed for days, I just laid on the couch for hours, staring blankly into the walls or ceiling. I cried every two hours for days, I soaked the shirt of my best friend. I couldn't even eat. Nothing mattered to me but him, and without him I wanted to die. My heart is slowly healing Father, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of men and relationships. I've been taught a valuable lesson, Father. Love is a lie, it does not exist. It's just a bedtime story our parents read to us, they taught us to believe that Love conquers all. They were wrong. Love does not conquer anything, it just makes humans susceptible to pain and depression. I should thank him for teaching me this. No need to give me Penance, Father, for I have given it to myself. Years of loneliness and scars. Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. Amen"

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