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March 2011
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Jen [userpic]
"I'd be more apathetic if I weren't so lethargic"-Family Guy

I haven't been here for awhile because I've been sleeping at least twelve hours a day during the week and haven't had the energy to type. That's sad. Depression sucks.

I should be sleeping. It's been roughly ten days since my last update, so let me try to recap properly.

Ihop bugged the shit out of me last night. Too many people with too much attitude including a woman who acted as though it was my fault the cooks fucked up her food. We ran out of silverware and placemats, I ended up bussing tables and a drunk bitch threw up on the floor. Bah. It got so bad that I wanted nothing more than to curl up in Matt's arms and cry. The negative energy that was floating around was enough to hurt me metaphysically.

Friday night Matt and three of his friends came on down, and it felt really good to see him. I went "SKWEEEEE" and got all sortsa excited, which resulted in Jennifer saying "If you ever skip like that in front of a guy you like again I will smack the shit out of you." His presence gave me a dreamy sort of calm that carried me til about an hour or so before my shift ended. All the girls that worked with me friday said he was adorable, and DeeDee said he's really cute and has that teddy bear quality to him. I smiled and nodded saying that he's a blast to be around, and told her a few things from the day he built a trip and got me super baked.

I did see Matt on the 13th I think it was. He asked if he could stay the night, but in the end he had to go back home. He picked me up from Mike and Madi's and we goofed around a little bit before throwing Bloody Kisses into the cd player. We had great sex, as usual. I must admit I was disappointed he couldn't stay the night, I really needed someone to sleep with.
He's supposed to come over monday night. Skwee!

I called Jay last week monday. I ranted, raged, insulted, and cried for about an hour. I told him everything I'd been feeling since this whole mess started. I must have gotten through to him because he cried, and that made me cry again. We ended up going out and meeting a couple of his friends. One of them reminded me of a grown up Stewie except he's straight :p The other one reminded me of Justin from Queer As Folk. Blonde, blue eyed, feminine looking with an undeniable English quality to him that made me drool. I haven't heard from Jay since that night, and I told him he needs to prove to me that he still wants me in his life. I can't trust him anymore so only time will tell.

I spent two hours on the phone with Megsy. We talked about what was going on with me and about a whole bunch of nonsense. We also talked about her plethora of animals. I can't wait to have my new phone so I can call her more.

I found out friday that someone I knew six years ago from chat died of liver failure. I'd like to say that it's a great loss, but I can't. She was insanely jealous of my friendship with Brent, and tried on numerous occasions to steal English Matt from me. Bitch.

I've talked to Jeff a few times in the past couple of weeks. He's doing as well as he can with a busted wrist and other assorted things I'm not at liberty to discuss. I did lose a bet with him concerning the World Series. Looks like I don't get his grey shirt. *sigh* I think that's all for now. I'm going to try and sleep. I have to be at Ihop at four.

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