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March 2011
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"My loneliness is so large, it has outgrown me"-Henry Rollins

Tonight I learned that Henry Rollins is warm, he smells good, and his hugs are comforting. *dreamy sigh*
When I went into Ihop tonight, Leticia didn't put me on the board so she said I could leave if I went to Starbucks for her. On my way to Starbucks I called The Rave to see if tickets were still available for tonight's Rollins show. I scored! I was talking to a few people at the door, and once inside I ran into Hobbes. We laughed our asses off for nearly three hours. He quoted a Bushism, and I said in my usual "wtf did he just say" incredulous sort of way "What?!" Henry looks in our general direction and says "Exactly", at another point in his show he was talking about how vulgar women are and I said "woo" and he said "See?" :D Hobbes and I bought merch, he got the Shock & Awe dvd, Henry's new book, and one of his cds. I got a t-shirt, book, and poster. The books and posters at the merch table were all signed by Henry. Afterwards Hobbes and I hung around to get stuff signed, when I handed him my email from him he said "Oh I wrote you." "Yes, you did." I told him he was an insipiration to me, and asked if I could hug him. YAY!!!! I also got my picture taken with him thanks to some random guy with a digital camera, that should be coming to my hotmail within the next couple of weeks.

We stopped at Hobbes place for a few minutes to drop his stuff off and then headed to Node where I ran into Nick, Xbox Scott, Maura, Peter and Jay. I got to have a good cuddle with Scott, and talked to Jay for a little while and got a ride home from him. Jay's coming over Tuesday night.

I realised tonight with a clarity that brought tears to my eyes that I miss being loved. I miss being important to someone. I'm so fucking lonely and depressed it's almost killing me. I want to lay in bed with someone and be held. To be held until my tears flood my face and not my soul. *sigh*



Nighttime screaming in my head,
Cold and lonely in this place,
Staring into the beauty of your face.
The loud and obnoxious
Tuned out as I stare into your eyes.
Just once,
Let me consume you
Let there be me inside your head,
You're the only one I see.
Please
Just once
Hold me.

Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: RHCP-Road Trippin
Comments

You...hugged...Henry...Rollins?!? Must...resist...urge...to...kill...out...of...envy!

Yes. Had my picture taken with him too. He smells good. *runs from evil homicidal catgirl* :p

(Anonymous)
I love you



Awwwww.. you know that I love you, Jenniphile.... You'll seriously always have a special place in my heart. I am so glad that I met you, and I know we'll grow closer as time marches on....

...even though you hung out with Hobbes.... BLECH Hahaha

Just remember who knows how to fuck, and who knows how to get STDs from their stupid ways....

And to clarify for thsoe who don't know me, I'm STD Free.... so, I'd be the one who knows how to fuck. Ask Jen. She'll tell you. heheh

CrocoStimpy Superbleeder

Re: I love you

Only you could go from sweet to "god that's just wrong".

Thank you sweetie. I love you too, and I am so glad I met you. Being around you is comforting, and it eases some of the pain. For a little while I feel human, I spose that's why I don't want the evening to end when we're talkin while you pack the road bowl. You mean the world to me.

I'm inclined to disagree with you about Hobbes. I can understand the fact that you don't like him, but he's still my friend. Besides, I wouldn't know anything about him having cooties, neither should you cos A- You're a breeder :p and B- His sex life has absolutely nothing to do with either one of us.

Heh. If you think people don't know you know how to fuck, you haven't been paying attention. We need to hang out again soon. The book I ordered came in so I'm going downtown either wednesday or thursday.